The greatest thing that happened to me recently was during my morning crosswalk duty on Friday. I know, who likes being on drop-off duty? First of all, a chance to be outside is always welcome. I used to go to recess with my students every day, and I've been missing the fresh air. But that wasn't the reason that day.
While I was waving the cars through and helping the kids and parents cross to the building, a minivan pulled up beside me. The driver yelled out, "What are YOU doing here?" I knew that one of my students from my previous school lived in the district, and I had found out his sister was in my school. However, I hadn't managed to figure out if they came to open house earlier this week and assumed I wouldn't see them for a while. But now that I had an added morning duty, I was there to see them. They invited me to their son's football game this weekend, and I think his head is going to explode when he sees me. He's one of those kids I just love spending time with, and I'm excited to see him and to be a part of his community.
No matter where I go, I am never far away from my old students and their families. I had a good friend who worked for a summer with a 3rd grade student I had taught when he was in preschool. I ran into that same student when observing a social skills group as part of an interview for a part time job. I have had students in my class at my outplacement school who came from the same public school I previously taught in. While there are some students I wanted to cross paths with again and haven't (yet)...ultimately, I feel like I live in a small world. The special education community in my area is full of surprises. Two former coworkers are in various positions in my current school building. One I went to college with and worked with during an internship about 7 years ago. The other was from my first job out of college, which I left almost 4 years ago.
It makes the goodbyes I've had to say easier. I'm getting better at it. While I still connect with my students, and do so quickly, I find it easier to let go knowing that our paths may cross again. I wouldn't be able to keep them at too much of a distance, and I wouldn't be a big help to them if I tried. My kids with emotional, behavioral, and attachment issues need to know that I do genuinely care for them. You can't fake that. And after only 4 weeks with my little guys, I really do care about each one of them. But I know that when I do move on, or when they do, we'll find each other again sometime. At some little moment. And I, as usual, will be amazed by how much they've learned and how far they've come. And as always, I will be proud as hell of the people they're becoming.
Saturday, September 21, 2013
Friday, September 20, 2013
Changes...
When I started this blog, I was a 1:1 aide in a public school, working with a co-taught 4th grade class. I had all the time in the world after school. I didn't plan anything, I didn't prep anything, I just worked with the materials I had. I thought I would blog.
Then last year, I got a job as an assistant teacher in a therapeutic middle school. I was suddenly planning for 3-4 subjects per day (social studies, math, reading group, and grammar) and assisting with writing, community meeting, social skills, and so on. About the only thing I wasn't involved in was science. I loved my job intensely and connected with my students easily. But I was busy and exhausted and picking up overtime hours and going to the gym like it was my (second) job. So I didn't blog.
Ultimately, I needed to move on this summer, because I have had my masters and teaching license since 2011 and haven't utilized it as a head teacher yet. Breaking into the head teacher role was difficult. Interviewing and convincing people that I could take on roles that were not part of my previous job, such as testing/evaluations, managing staff, and writing IEPs. Luckily each job gave me a little more experience, and at this point, I am happy to say I managed to be comfortable enough to convince a district to give me a shot. And I don't always know what I'm doing, but I always have someone I can ask.
I interviewed for, was offered, and accepted my current position the Friday before my old job was meant to start. There was a week of orientation for staff there, and hopefully that gave them some time to replace me. My new students, however, started just 2 days after I was hired. It has been a complete whirlwind and I'm still trying to catch my breath. My team just now feels like we're starting to settle in a bit after 4 weeks (15 school days)--I think having 2 full weeks has been helpful, because it solidified our schedule a bit.
I am teaching in a 1st-5th grade emotional/behavioral program where kids vary wildly from on/above grade-level to kids with huge skill gaps, reading 3+ years below grade level...and kids with minor behavioral issues who have succeeded in the program and gained skills over the years, to kids who have majorly unsafe behaviors we're starting to see bubble up to the surface. I have 7 students who are included in 5 different classes. I am co-teaching with a general education teacher who consults with teachers to deliver their grade level work if they can't get it in class, while I modify classroom work to meet their needs. I have 3 fabulous paraprofessionals who support my kiddos in inclusion. My biggest nightmare is managing the schedule for all of us, but its beginning to settle down and all 12 of us know where we should be when and with whom. Until it all changes again.
I guess my point is, I am absolutely not less busy than I was before. I am not finding myself with an abundance of free time. But when I do have free time, I am finding that I want to spend time talking about my work, sharing ideas, and being part of a larger community of educators. So now, finally, I feel ready to actually put some work into this blog. I hope it will be a useful outlet for me, a resource for others, and a connection to people who are working in similar environments.
Then last year, I got a job as an assistant teacher in a therapeutic middle school. I was suddenly planning for 3-4 subjects per day (social studies, math, reading group, and grammar) and assisting with writing, community meeting, social skills, and so on. About the only thing I wasn't involved in was science. I loved my job intensely and connected with my students easily. But I was busy and exhausted and picking up overtime hours and going to the gym like it was my (second) job. So I didn't blog.
Ultimately, I needed to move on this summer, because I have had my masters and teaching license since 2011 and haven't utilized it as a head teacher yet. Breaking into the head teacher role was difficult. Interviewing and convincing people that I could take on roles that were not part of my previous job, such as testing/evaluations, managing staff, and writing IEPs. Luckily each job gave me a little more experience, and at this point, I am happy to say I managed to be comfortable enough to convince a district to give me a shot. And I don't always know what I'm doing, but I always have someone I can ask.
I interviewed for, was offered, and accepted my current position the Friday before my old job was meant to start. There was a week of orientation for staff there, and hopefully that gave them some time to replace me. My new students, however, started just 2 days after I was hired. It has been a complete whirlwind and I'm still trying to catch my breath. My team just now feels like we're starting to settle in a bit after 4 weeks (15 school days)--I think having 2 full weeks has been helpful, because it solidified our schedule a bit.
I am teaching in a 1st-5th grade emotional/behavioral program where kids vary wildly from on/above grade-level to kids with huge skill gaps, reading 3+ years below grade level...and kids with minor behavioral issues who have succeeded in the program and gained skills over the years, to kids who have majorly unsafe behaviors we're starting to see bubble up to the surface. I have 7 students who are included in 5 different classes. I am co-teaching with a general education teacher who consults with teachers to deliver their grade level work if they can't get it in class, while I modify classroom work to meet their needs. I have 3 fabulous paraprofessionals who support my kiddos in inclusion. My biggest nightmare is managing the schedule for all of us, but its beginning to settle down and all 12 of us know where we should be when and with whom. Until it all changes again.
I guess my point is, I am absolutely not less busy than I was before. I am not finding myself with an abundance of free time. But when I do have free time, I am finding that I want to spend time talking about my work, sharing ideas, and being part of a larger community of educators. So now, finally, I feel ready to actually put some work into this blog. I hope it will be a useful outlet for me, a resource for others, and a connection to people who are working in similar environments.
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